maybe..sometimes it's better to leave it alone.

I often see history repeating itself. My life experiences replayed on someone's else life- and more often than not, I hope that I had the chance to warn the person but circumstances deny me so. From another perspective, if I'd done so, then I would deprived the person of a chance to learn through life experiences.

The art of kite flying- to maintain the fine balance of possessive and freedom.

My Running Diary

August 2008
Nike Human Race- didn't sign up in time:/


September 2008
Nil

October 2008
?New Balance Real Run
GE Women's 10k Run

November 2008
Nil

December 2008
Standard Chartered Marathon-13.1miles

Counting Down!!
I need to get my fat buttocks moving:(
*huff huff*

When people around sounds the alarm

Having got back from Australia, everyone's interest are not only in the travelling and studying experiences but the romance I had encountered in Sydney. I am more than happy to share the first two ones but I haven't had the best deal of romance in Sydney so unless u are interested in boring stories,we can skip that.

As women approach the 2 at the front of their true age, as indicated on their NRIC, it is inevitable that you will start to give some( i emphasise some) thoughts to the possibility of settling down. There you will start dreaming of your weddding- wedding venue, the songs during ur march and solemnisation, the people u wish to involve in ur wedding, the wedding dress and the wedding band..heaps of thinks to fantasise about. Hm,did you realise that something very important in the entire process is missing？？
THat's right!!! IT'S　ＴＨＥ GROOM!! Many times when I discuss about my wedding plans, my friends will duly remind me that I am heading to far- I have not found the partner to commence the plans. Even if I do find one, it's not my wedding. It's our wedding. Now, that really set me thinking. I might not get what I want- my dream wedding..LOL~
Hm "some" might sound like an understatement now, isn't it?

After my year in Sydney,I had seen the efforts and concerns of my family(extended included) in the search of "THE ONE". Many offers to help me create opportunities：doctor,pastor,football player,accountant. Well, at my workplace, my seniors have been in the deliberate quest to hunt for potential doctors for me!!! *shakes head and can't help but laughed till my tears erupted*

My close buddies will know of the criteria list that I've set is undesirably critical and insane. They do not think that such a person exist. When I took a look at it, I reckoned there's one person who fulfils all. I'm looking for the perfect man. Hm. It seems like only God can fulfil all those little itsy stuff i want in a person.

Hm. question: Have I refined my list then? *nods* One who has the courage, and not arrogance, 1)to be honest in Love, 2)trusting in the Lord for my honesty and character,3)to battle the oppositions and persevere 3)to risk his vulnerability and trust in people

4) to handle the calling of fatherhood for 4 children..LOL
-provided that He obeys the first and greatest commandment-
That's where it will stop, at this point:P

Next episode- my wedding. synopsis.

MIddle Year Conference 2008- Resurrection.

I am glad to know that I've been risen with the Lord, that I may live a living day:)

Cronulla, Sydney- I got a sign From God.

The week's been challenging. I started work at my hospital and though it has not been the best weeks since I got back( Obviously, with myself recovering the post moving away from Sydney syndrome), I thank God for the opportunities that I can lend a ear or a hand in helping the people I've seen. I do wonder if I were ever in their pair shoes, how optimistic could I stay especially for the many who thought they could get
of out well and be how they were before admission but some don't seem to live to must say it houses some of the most loving people you can ever find on Earth. Their patience to care and clean, to persuade and assure, to complement and carry messages..they get out of here. Before I start making hospitals sound like a dreadful dying place, I pretty much define the efficiency of my work pace.

The gang from ECU are not forgotten. Aaron, Seiko, Wing Kei, Cliff, Ange, Yin, Chris, Jason, Ellie, Robbo, Kat..hmm did i forget anyone?? Not forgetting the ECU staff workers and also my bible study group babes!!

I would suppose one of the most beautiful memories I had of Sydney was whale watching at the cliffs of the Royal National Park inTalkin about lovely people, how could I forget my mates in Australia:) Bundeena. I got to the place with How Ee first because Cai was late..she overslept. How and I had a good brekky and chattin, laughing at my bo liao jokes about random stuff while we waited for Cai to arrive and catch the ferry from Cronulla to Bundeena.

We had a short bushwalk to the coastal track and got onto the Asian thing with taking photos.. Suddenly, How screamed out that she saw whales. We got a little closer and standing near the edge of the cliff and YES there were WHALES!! how exciting can that get!!!

So we decided to sit there and have a short picnic. We sat at the cliff edge and waited and waited. We tried identifying water movements or lookin for patches in water so that we can have an opportunity to capture whale pictures. How Ee was all into that. Cai and I just sat down and stared..well cai fell asleep as usual ( her theory of if she doesn't do anything, she will fall asleep always happens.) As I sat there watching, everytime I saw a vauge impression of a whale coming out of the water I will shriek. A couple of times when we see a group of them swimming across us in a large group, we went hysterical. Then God spoke to me. He asked me," Viv, are u anticipating my visitation like how u are waiting for the whales to appear? Looking out for the signs? Ecstatic every moment? Lookin intently for me?? Searching for me?"

At that moment, I was stumped. Stumped for an answer for God- I wanted to say Yes but I know that in some moments of my life (when I visited Bundeena), I didn't. And I said God I'm sorry. Then more whales appeared- for a full 15 minutes we saw a group of them swam right in front of us. When u persevere in the waiting, U will be rewarded more than what u think u have put in. I did- for the whales and definitely more from God.

Are u waiting intently on God?

Wallflower's back!

Back in Sydney, I managed to catch "The Dark knight" with Brian at Hoyts. As I watched the movie, I couldn't help but feel that helplessness for the characters in the show. The helplessness in the situations they faced- whether is it to save GOtham city for Bruce, Harvery Dent to revenge for his girlfriend's death, Joker's attempt to make the world notice him.
As the show meant, it was a really dark movie but intriguing one. When I recalled of how desperate Batman wanted to save the city but he felt he could no longer fulfil that job, the sense of desperation to find someone to take over ( one who is more fitting than himself) just came over him. At that moment, I felt like him. For the many months in Australia, I was always gripped by that thought that God should find someone else to fill my shoes in the ministry, in the family, in my career. I was tired of being me.

Still, at the end of the show, Batman never turned his back but he did what he was compelled to. Then I told God- I am gonna stay for good in Your Call, no matter what happens because u did more than what I could. Your death has conquered all. In the show, Batman had to rely on his intelligence, strength, wisdom, experience to fight the villians. ME? I have my mighty God, my Father, my disciplinarian, my teacher and counsellor..I'm on the winning end ( then I realised).

I'm back for more!

"The name Wallflower is derived from this plant's traditional use as a plant that can be tucked into cracks and crevices in rock and mortar walls. Wallflowers are native to rocky cliffs of southeastern Europe. Their origins and traditional uses give us a clues as to how carefree the plant is once established in a suitable place in the garden. Wallflower is not picky about soil at all, other than it must be totally well-drained. It will not tolerate any standing water even for a short time and it demands full sun."

I'm a wallflower:)- I can survive anywhere, just make sure I have my LIGHT-JESUS:)